Life has been dramatic recently. Once again I feel I’m going through a cycle of intense change…
This time, it feels like layers of old skin are being peeled back. The last remaining bits. The little chink of stability I had has been chipped away at. Thoughts and feelings I once held are being put to the test. Things are different – things are scary. But also, I feel I am on the precipice of something big. Something life-changing, in a way that is needed and necessary for growth and my next chapter.
I’m putting in the work. I can’t think of a time where I have ever worked so hard on myself. Therapy, running, working on personal projects, saving, journaling, dealing with my anxiety and learning new coping methods. I have new goals, ideals and wants. I’m building a picture in my mind of what I want to achieve and every day I am taking one small step towards it.
In a year from now, I want to look back at this moment and remember – that change is not always bad, sometimes it is merely challenging. I’m taking every lesson I have learnt, from the bad experiences I’ve had, and trying to use it positively. Adjusting your mindset is tough, exhausting work but I know that in a year from now I will have come so far from where I am today.
One step at a time, day by day. Big, amazing things are coming and obstacles will not get me down. I’ll carry on and keep going until I reach that resting spot, to pause and reflect on what I’ve done with myself and my life, and how very proud of it I am.